CD 10....What am I supposed to feel??

So, as you can see from the title, this is cycle day 10. I have to go in for blood work and ultrasound today. Ask me how I feel about this. Nervous. I just want this one to work, I just want it to be successful.

We do have an appointment with our doc tomorrow morning, just to discuss where we are at, what to do next if this round doesnt work. I need to have this appointment. I need to see what my chances are and what the reality is going forward. My mind has been drifting to a surrogate. The possibility of having someone else carry my child has been on my mind. Is being pregnant something I'm willing to give up in order to have a child? Is that bond one I am willing to go without? Will that affect my relationship with my child? Can we afford the cost of surrogacy? Can we find someone to carry our child who will likely end up pregnant the first time around? These are the questions that surround my mind on a daily basis.

It's no wonder I don't get a lot of sleep every night.