One down, one to go....

Soooo....after a 23 day cycle I surged.....on my own too!!! Yippee!! So I was inseminated on tuesday, April 28th and again on the 29th. There was a low sperm count on the first day so we "did a double"...hehe....that is fertility lingo. Anyway, I am now one week into the waiting. I hate this part. The first week goes by quickly. Then, starts the second week. It is a week of torture. Do I act as though I'm pregnant? Do I let myself think that cramp in my stomach is the fetus attaching? Do I let myself think that little twinge of sickness in the morning is because I'm expecting or because I am hungry when I wake up?

Ugh, I hate this part! I dread the call from the clinic on the day of the beta. I always hope to hear a great, enthusiastic "congratulations, you're pregnant" but then am hit with disappointment.....time after time. This time does feel different to me....it really does. It feels like such a possibility to me, it is a little bit exhillerating. Just a few bits of date related triggers.....I would find out right around mothers day. Also, my due date would be about the 12th of January....which is my dad's birthday. Wouldnt that be neat?!

Anyway, I know ultimately it isnt up to me.....but I really feel it could be time.....God has prepared me, and Nader and us as a couple. I truely have my trust in Him, just find the patience part of it hard to deal with.

Well, let the waiting continue......